My Dream Job

I haven't posted for a while I've been busy playing with my new phone! WOOOOOOOW! I love it! It has internet, games, apps, mp3 player, everything, it even has wi-fi so it loads super fast when Im at home (my laptop broke so I literally am glued to my phone now!) It's not an iphone or a blackberry before you ask, it's a sony ericsson elm.

It looks a bit big but it's only the size of a normal phone, Im not going into boring geeky tech details about it but it's definitly the best phone I have had, Im still on PAYG (I change my job that often I can't get a contract as I don't know if I'll be able to afford it, plus, a little incident with a friend of mine!) It cost £80, the sign in the shop said it should of been £160 but Ive seen it brand new for £120 so doubt it was £160!
Im still working at Greggs (unfortunately!), but not given up with my job hunting, infact I have actually found my DREAM job, it has;

- Mon-Fri 9-5 hours
- Sat behind a desk not getting my hands covered in grease.
- No uniform, just smart clothes.
- 100% job security.
- Get to meet new people every day.
- Massive job satisfaction from helping others.

Can you guess what it is yet? Well the picture below might give you a clue...

Can you guess? Look closer at the picture, yes that is a casket at the end! The job is for a funeral arranger and it's based in Preston! I can't even tell you how much I want this job, I have thought about becoming a funeral director for a while now and have written to several places asking about work experience but not heard back from any of them, so for a vacancy to come up that I can easily reach is fantastic, it also pays 3 times what Im on at the moment. It might seem morbid wanting to do this but I can guarantee that it isn't. I personally knew a funeral director and he was one of the most upbeat, happy people I knew, so much so I dated him for several months! Unfortunately he passed away (ironic right?)

So, Im sending my application in before Friday and praying that I get an interview, wish me luck!

The diet is going well too, despite eating a ton of junk food over the past week I lost another 2lbs, I had a couple of saty the same weeks before hand but my total weight loss is now 8lbs. Thats over half a stone, Im really impressed, you can tell in my face and have been told you can tell in my bum. I want to be able to tell in my stomach!! I have a holiday coming up in August!

Money = Argh!

Yet another 'depressing' blog Im afraid. I still haven't received the money for the bill I have to pay despite being promised I would get it today, why am I kidding myself? I'm not suprised it's not fucking been sent! I don't know why I trust people? I HATE lending people money - and borrowing it for that money, not because im a tight bitch but because when fall-outs happen people are constantly pestering you. I havent falled out with the friend that owes me the money but they aren't the most reliable person when it comes to money.

NEVER lend money to somebody. Well that's my opinion anyway. The past few days I have been feeling so ill with anxiety and depression over the way things are at the moment. (Yes, before you start going "blah blah blah you don't know what depression is". Believe me, I do! I have been in hospital over it - something Im not going to elaborate on and Im not looking for sympathy. Just don't trust people as much as you think.

My job is still pissing me off royally! I got a massive burn from the oven today and got fuck all sympathy off anybody. Im not expecting them to run around after me but the whole upper part of my arm is red and VERY sore. I didn't get break until 45 minutes before I was due to finish as well. I wish the bloody managers knew what they were doing. I can't wait to leave that shop.

This little hottie will cheer me up...

Matt King

Ok, so now Im a bit bored and doing what I occasionally do when I am bored and have nothing to do online (apart from go on facebook). Perv. Yes I admit, I am a massive perv, (in the sense that I will stare at anything that is marginally attractive.) Currently got a bit of a crush obsession with Matt King who plays Super Hans in 'Peep Show'. He's in an electro-dub band with a few mates and loves his drugs. But look at how pretty he is... <3

I absolutely LOVE this picture, he looks so hot in it, and although I have a phobia of snakes, doubt it would matter if he was holding it :D Yummy. Now I know somebody is going to mention it because they did back in the day and at the time I didn't know who Super Hans was, but yes, my ex boyfriend does look A LOT like Super Hans. Especially on the below picture (with shades). I haven't got any pictures of my ex and won't post any obviously because I don't have any permission, Im not going to badmouth the guy but I know I'd prefer Matt King over my ex any day of the week!

If you knew my ex (or if you know me then you will KNOW which ex I mean). You will agree that the above picture is scarily similar to him! (Anyway, not here to moan about him.) Below is a video post of Matt in Peep Show playing Super Hans...

Super Hans Gives Up Crack (Blue Tracksuit) <3





Trust?

First of all, let me say, this blog post is definitly a RANT. I am so angry right now and Im not going to take it out on facebook! First of all, some advice...NEVER EVER set up a phone contract in your name for somebody else, I have found out the hard (and expensive!) way.

I set up a 24 month contract for a friend back in October on the promise that the bill would be paid monthly, (it was with my details but my friends bank account). Well, the bill was never bloody paid! After several letters I got a letter from the phone company asking for payment of the bill (around £200). Now I can NOT afford to pay it, so after calling vodafone and explaining the situation (and I did try and change the names on the contract but was told I couldn't!)

Anyway, I spoke to a lovely guy and he sorted it out for me, as my case was under 'exceptional circimstances' they said they would waver the rest of the connection fee (around £800). So now I have to pay £40 a month for 6 months without any contract and they won't send any debt collectors around. I don't regret what I did as I was helping out a friend and at the time I didn't know this would happen, also I have learnt the hard way.
My friend is sending me the money to pay the contract which is what should be done. I haven't fallen out over it, it's just one of these things but NEVER EVER do it, and I want phone companies to put a stop to letting friends taking out contracts for others. It shouldn't be allowed!

Another load of stress is my job, yes it's still shit! I was stuck on bake-off all day today (obviously boiling hot), the stupid place is giving me spots (something I have never suffered with before). One manager tells me one thing, the other tells me something else, and then I get shouted at. It's a load of bollocks, Im doing 16 hours, the rota's are constantly changing so it's impossible to make plans. I've had to re-arange 2 appointments whilst I've been there already, and that's a lot considering I havent been there a month!
Im still job-hunting and applied for another today, this time at pound world, not fantastic but it's full-time and a HELL of a lot better than greggs!

Today's tune Im loving is Lady Gaga - Born This Way

Don't get me wrong, I cannot STAND Lady Gaga, I think she is VERY over-rated and wants to be the next Madonna. She has an average voice put I think she is so popular as her songs are so catchy and her videos are entertaining. I haven't put the video up because I HATE the video. I like the song because it is good to dance to. (After Thursday I know Im good at dancing to it as well!). Definitly want to hear this one in Malia!

Abuse with that pizza?

WOW, just when I thought my job couldnt get any worse..today happens!

I get in at 11.30am thinking I am working at 12 and then my shit for brains manager comes up to me and says Im late and I was meant to be in at 11. The rota has been changed without me being told. ARGHHHHHH!!!!

So Im serving these two young asian lads and they want 2 cheese and tomato pizzas. So I get them, give one to the guy and then he puts some change on the counter, he's 2p short. Now I know it's only 2p but it still isn't the full amount, so he asks, "Can I just pay that." And I say no, you have to pay for both. So then he says "Can i just pay for one then. Then I put his other pizza back and he goes "whoah no! I want both!" In a cocky voice. So I tell him, "You can't have the other pizza unless you pay for it." He then proceeds to pull out a £5 note which he says he isn't going to give me until I give him his change from the first payment.

I tell him he can't have it unless he gives me the money to pay for the pizzas, so he reluctantly gives it me and says 'stealing my money' under his breathe. Im thinking "What a complete tosser." So I get him his change and put it on the counter, I'm in a bit of a mood after my manager had changed my rota without telling me. So he comes up to the counter and starts yelling "What's your fucking problem? I'll throw this pizza in your face!" Im SO angry I tell him to get out of the shop. So him and his mate start saying "You fucking slag." I scream "Get out of the shop!" So they get out. Im shaking by this point, burst into tears and run upstairs.

After a minute or so I come down and it's my manager giving ME shit. Saying, you shouldn't have provoked them. Well FUCK OFF you stupid manager, you cant do shit anyway! I am NOT working in a shop where I get called a fucking slag by two little chavs and then being told off for it! I didn't call them any names, just to get out of the shop.

If anybody knows of any jobs going in Preston or Chorley, PLEASE let me know!!!!

On a lighter note I found this, it's the Spanish version to J.Lo & Pitbull's song 'On the Floor', it's called 'Ven A Bailer'

Liverpool

On Friday after work I got the train to Liverpool for the weekend to visit an old uni friend. Before I explain everything let me first say...I wish I'd stayed at home! Don't get me wrong, Liverpool is my favourite city (in the UK) and I miss living there but this weekend was total madness for all the wrong reasons. Let's call my friends B (girl) and D (boy). They have been together for 4 years and on-off a few times then, so they are living in a flat which I found out to be more like student accomodation. It was very clean but small, a single bed and 1 room for 3 of us. Communal shower and living area.

We were going to a dubstep night on the Friday night which went on until 5am, I didn't particularly want to go but seeing as they were going round Liverpool centre with me on the Saturday I didn't complain and got dressed up.
We got a taxi there and when we got in (after paying £6), the artist on was more like reggae and B & D promised me it would get heavier and have proper dubstep. We kept moving to the smoking shelter (they both smoke), and then D said he needed to get his bank card from home, so we walked back home from the club to their flat to get this bank card. On the way back I felt really ill and when we got inside I was sick and then went to curl up on the bed. B & D asked me if I was ok and I was ok just tired and a bit off-colour so decided to stay in whilst they went out. They said they would ring me when they needed to be let into the flat so I went to sleep and then they called me at 4am. When they got in we went to sleep (me in the single bed them on the floor).

The next day (Saturday), we got up and found out that B and I were going to her parents because it was her younger brothers birthday. Her parents don't like D so we went without him. We met her brother in town first and he lent her some money, next we went to get some food where B & D had a row in town and D walked off. By this point I was feeling really uncomfortable as I didn't want to take sides between them. B told me there was nothing to worry about and they would be alright later. I decided to get a tattoo whilst there so I got a REALLY cute jellyfish on my ankle, random I know but its super cute.
So we went to B's parents house and got back to Liverpool around 8pm, we started to get ready and although I was looking forward to going out I just couldnt get in the mood and had a feeling something was going to happen. I shrugged it off and we got into town for just after 10.30pm.

We went straight to Reflex bar (my favourite!) and saw my old friend DJ Alan who gave us a bottle of 'champagne' (bubbly lambrini), B & D were both skint and so I bought a bottle of wine for us to share, it didn't last long though! We were in Reflex until about midnight and then B stormed off and got her jacket. I asked D where she had gone but he just said he didn't know and would go and find out so I went carried on dancing (I was pretty drunk). After 10 minutes neither of them had come back so I went outside to find them and they were nowhere to be seen, I had run out of credit on my phone so couldn't call but I could text. I sent both of them about 10-15 texts asking them to ring me and where I was but didn't get a reply.
I texted my mum and put on facebook that I was stuck in Liverpool ALONE. I knew my way around but I was stuck and didn't know what to do. I made way back to my old student halls to borrow the phone when a pay-phone called my mobile but I couldnt hear anything, I texted B&D to let them know I was walking back to the flat. (At this point I was barefoot and it was raining!)

By total chance I had turned down the road where their flat is and saw them arguing half way down. Instead of being asked if I was ok, the first thing I heard was 'B smashed my phone up!' then B came over screaming at D. I was sick of their constant arguing and just wanted to go home. When in the flat I heard that B had stormed off and she had smashed up D's phone, her phone had run out of battery. I was FUMING but didnt let on that I was. I packed up my bag and decided to get the first train back in the morning.

The next day I just got a 'alright Vic, I'll see you later.' I've since had an apology off her but then been removed from her facebook friends. DISASTER weekend!

I want!

I've decided to do a 'feature' in my blog, called 'What I Want This Week', so this week it's a pair of shoes I saw in 'Dune', I ran over to them as soon as I saw them! They are called 'Vanilla' and cost £85, Im a size 7 if anybody wants to buy them for me...Vanilla by Dune What do you think...

I REALLY want these shoes but Im waiting for them to go into the sale, there is also a matching bag on the website, I can't think of anything Id wear them with but any excuse to go shopping!

Poster

Last night when I got in from work I checked my post and saw a handwritten letter for me! I recognized the handwriting to be my friend Leanne and started laughing straight away even before I opened it! :D So I opened it and saw a lovely little card and a magazine cutting!


I saw the cutting from the back so at first I thought 'Why have they sent me a cutting on The Only Way Is Essex'? Then I opened it up and saw this god...

Very yummy Mateo (Jake Canuso) from Benidorm, he plays a sleazy waiter/barman but come on, look at that! That wasn't the picture in the magazine (I can't find that anywhere :( boo!) but it was a topless one! I LOVE Benidorm, it's by far my favourite show on TV. 

I definitly have a weakness for foreign looking guys, especially dark hair and tanned skin :P

Thank you Becky & Leanne for my lovely picture <3

New Diet

Well I've been at my job for just over a week now and I still hate it, but, Im gritting my teeth and getting on with it, Im looking for another job but no success yet. I cant live on 16 hours a week! I want to move out this year and can't do that on 16 hours! :(

My diet last week wasn't fantastic either but because of all the gym time I put in (and zumba classes) I stayed the same weight, this week Im trying a form of what is called a 'starvation diet', although technically Im not starving myself. I found it online (NOT a pro-ana site, let me stress that I do not approve of these websites at all!).
So instead of having 3 meals a day I'll have;

- No breakfast (I haven't eaten breakfast since I was about 15 anyway)
- Low-fat snack for lunch (today I had a shape yoghurt)
- Low-fat meal for tea.

I won't lie, I have been hungry today, especially working around all the pies but I haven't picked at anything, I'll of course be going to the gym. Im going to see how much I have lost at the end of the week but I will be going round Liverpool on Friday and Saturday night (plenty of alcohol/takeways) so I'll update on friday regarding this particular diet. But I have noticed it has been making me tired and a bit grumpy.

Shite Job

So I have decided that I don't like my job! Yeah yeah, I know I've only done 2 shifts there but I do not take kindly to being treated like a piece of **** on somebodys shoe!

First time sweeping the store and I get told to 'HURRY UP!' Well Im sorry but I havent done it before and I wanted to do it properly so I didn't have to go back and do it again! Plus, I had to pull out all the cleaning stations etc and I didn't know where they went whilst I was cleaning, sorry if you want your store to be dirty!
First time packing a box of cream buns and the supervisor comes over and UNPACKS what I have just finished packing. To top that off she hasnt even packed it properly so the box comes open and I have to do it again!

Im constantly having to wash my hands - I don't really mind this per se as I understand that im around food and it has to be hygeinic, I just hate my hands constantly feeling greasy! Not to mention the disgusting hairnet and baseball cap I have to wear! I got told Im not allowed to wear make-up too. NO WAY! They say this as they don't want people caked in fake tan and orange foundation but there is NO WAY I am having my eyeliners taken off me!
I almost walked out yesterday but kept my cool, my shifts are only 4 hours but it doesn't half drag when you arent even allowed a sip of water until your break and you have 2 hot ovens behind you.

So Im on the look out for a new job, Greggs was only just to get some holiday money but Im looking for a new job now, so if you know any full time (or 20hours plus) jobs going in the Preston/Chorley area please let me know!

Felicity Jane

A big congratulations to one of my best friends Sarah who became a mummy today for the first time :) She had a baby daughter who she has named Felicity Jane and who weighed 6lbs 7oz, I can't wait to see a picture of her and meet her. Sending you loads of love xxxxx

A Spot!

I am in a very bad mood, I have a spot on my chin! Its one of those thats under your skin so it hurts like a bitch! I never get spots and don't know why I have got it because I have cut down eating asll the junk food! So does anybody have any good spot cream recommendations? Please dont just say the brand name, I need the actual product, like face wash, cream, etc.

Got my second day in the shop today too, not helped by the fact I have stomach ache, definitly liquid lunch today! I had a disasterous day on the diet day yesterday, I had a pizza AND pancakes and a few double cream oreo bicuits :/ I'd had a bad day and my mum was driving me mental (as usual). Definitly going to hammer the gym hard tomorrow. Can't go tonight as Im seeing my dad.

Although, saying that the top Im wearing now is a size 12 and fits well, very pleased!

My Diet

I am currently on a diet, not any in-particular (i.e weight watchers, slimming world), and it is going VERY well! At first it was difficult not wanting to grab a chocolate bar when I was a bit bored but having disciplined myself I now no longer crave as much junk food! I have always been quite tall (5'8') so I have never looked huge. I was the happiest with my weight when I was in my final year of high school and was a UK size 10/12. At college I started to put weight on and went up to a 12/14, I wasn't unhappy with my weight but wasn't over the moon either.
At university in 2007 I was a 12/14 but living away from home I could eat (and drink!) what I wanted, I put on a noticeable (but not loads) of weight from the September to December, that Christmas I must of been one of the few people who ever loses weight over the xmas break! I went back to university in January a bit slimmer but still had a bit of extra weight.

Above is me at university a size 12/14, the top Im wearing is a size 10, I was happy with my figuire here (after the xmas break), the shorts here no longer fit me! I decided to not continue uni after April and found a job in a jewellers, I was a steady weight for a couple of years and stayed at a 14. Despite wanting to be a 10/12 I was happy with my size and was confident enough to wear what I wanted on nights out, I still managed to pull guys and wear the clothes I wanted so didn't diet. Below is me in April 2009 at a size 14, I felt comfortable with my body here despite breaking the legs/boobs rule I think I looked quite nice.

In May 2009 I moved to Greece, where I put on a bit of weight, only a few pounds but I could tell, at this point I was a bit worried about getting 'fat' so started going to aerobics with my cousin. I was still a size 14 in September 2009. I got a job in a bar in town where I was running around as a waitress and behind the bar, I was also going out a lot and the combination of running and dancing helped me lose the extra pounds. I also met my then boyfriend (now-ex) working there, let's call him X, me and X would go on nights out A LOT and without being too graphic we had a very healthy relationship ;) I noticed I had lost a bit of weight first on my boobs because they had shrunk a bit!

Above is a picture of me on a night out with 2 friends, at the time I was dating X and as you can see my boobs have definitly shrunk, the outfit I was wearing consisted of skinny jeans and a waistcoat, (both don't fit me now), whilst I was dating X I wore a lot of short dresses, low cut tops and even hotpants, I felt very confident about my body and loved the attention I was given. I stayed at a 14 (sometimes 12) when I was dating X and was happy.
When X and I split for good in June 2010 I started to put on weight through comfort eating, although now I can see the relationship was definitly a bad idea at the time I was very upset and would treat myself to fast food and high calorie treats. I also worked in the shopping centre at the time and would buy sanwiches, wraps and pasties for my lunch. I quickly went from a slim 14 to a 14 bordering 16. By August 2010 I was a large 14 and not happy with my figuire, I went on holiday to Greece and hated how I looked but with the weather being very hot I couldn't hide under baggy clothes.

Above is me in August 2010 in Malia, Greece. I had just won on the 'gladiators' game. I HATE this picture but look at it to remind myself I don't want to look like this when I go away again this August (to the same place!) I was only just a 14 here (nearly 16). Despite having a great holiday I HATED my body. When I got home I saw the pictures and felt awful - more comfort eating!

By November 2010 when i started my job in ASDA I was a small size 16, I didn't feel huge (the uniform is quite flattering despite the bright green colour!) because I made a lot of friends at asda I felt happy but after work I would often buy my tea and ate A LOT of pizza, my size was still a 16 but my work pants felt a bit tighter!

After losing my job in January I decided that instead of sitting around doing nothing I would get fit and lose weight, so I joined the gym at the end of January 2011 and started my diet. My diet consists of cutting out all junk food, and cutting down on thinks such as pizza, crisps and chocolate. I also started going to zumba classes once sometimes twice a week which is like latin/hip hop dancing and burns between 500-900 calories an hour.

My Diet So Far

Im going to update at the bottom of my blog every week with how my diet is going, I won't reveal my weight but I will let you know how much I have lost! My aim is to lose at least 2 stone by August - this should mean I'll be a size 12, my ideal goal would be to be a size 10 and have a super toned stomach, but Im just aiming for a 12 at the moment!

So far I have lost - 7lbs!

First day...

I started my new job yesterday as a 'sales assistant' at Greggs, I worked 10-2 and that meant working over lunch, obviously if you have ever been to greggs at lunch then you will know how busy it is! I started by just copying what the other staff put in the till on training mode before putting items through on normal mode! I was worried I'd mess up and over-charge people but it went really well and didn't make any mistakes!

I get £6.19 an hour which goes up to £6.38 after my training and Im also getting a pay-rise in April, 21 days holiday, uniform and 50% discount! Working there is NOT easy when you're on a diet and so I took my own lunch in, only working 4 hour shifts is good because I can have a lie-in and still have the rest of the afternoon to do what I like, the only downside is working in town. Obviously I get to meet new people but weekly pay + town centre = shopping! There is a bureau de change near my shop so I'll definitly be changing my pounds into Euros for my holiday in August!

New Job

I start the first day of training for my new job tomorrow! Im really excited, I love the first day at a new job, you can get away with making a mistake! Im going to be working at Greggs the bakers, it's only part time but with how difficult it is to find work nowadays I am very happy to have found some work! I haven't worked anywhere like Greggs before (except maybe Subway) so it should be interesting to see what it's like!

I was unemployed for 2 months before I got the job, I worked at ASDA over Christmas and really enjoyed it, I knew the job was only temporary with the possibility of being permanent but unfortunately I wasn't kept on, due to the fact I had been off sick for 2 DAYS with sinusitus, I don't think it was fair but due to the fact I was on 'probation' I couldn't argue. I still talk to the staff at asda and think they are really nice people.

My training is tomorrow 9.30-3.30 in Blackpool, yes I have to go to Blackpool, it's only 25 minutes on the train but it's just a hassle! I'll let you know how I get on!

Vicki x